Note: This story is only for readers. The names mentioned in the story are imaginary
••••I read “Half-Girlfriend” last night. It was a suggestion from Pranami. The story hurt me, amazed me, excited me, and have encouraged me to live a wonderful life even without my loved one. My love transfers from Garima to Rimi. But the more I love Rimi, the more I get hurt by her. It is really disgusting to be ignored by a person whom you love the most in the world and give the best place in your heart after the God,i.e.,Parent.
She seems to be very confined, strong with her decisions, with her mentality. She is something more than I think of her or what people think about a girl. She has a beautiful mind along with some dirty strength inside it.
••••I think,I am writing well. May be it’s the effect of Chetan Bhagat‘s well written English.
••••I think I am going to leave these all. I have no idea what I m doing or what I am dealing with. The only thing I know is the fact that I love her blindly even after her again and again betrayal to me. It doesn’t mean that I trust her. She is a cheater,a lady player of well-planned mind games.
“U want to be best friend rather than being in a relationship? It’s ok if u want so”, She texted. She never confesses that she is the reason for our inconsistent relationship. Even Sodium in Periodic Table is less reactive than her! Never accepts the fact that Not I , she wants that, to be just a best friend. It is her wish not to stay in a relationship,but pushed the matter to my side such in a way that the real culprit is me. How can a guy become a besfriend of the girl whom he love the most. Can he see his loved one going to her loved one?
••••I asked her yesteday about her first love and true love. I thought she would answer me as the first and Nilim as the true love. Because, all the other guyz she loved in her highschool life didn’t seem to be in her mind. But she answered it so nicely with Mrinmay Medhi in the place of mine on her first love spot. Lol I was like wow nice, so m not there in any corner of your lovezone, Right! But I have a bad (or good) habit to hid my feelings or thoughts.
This incident was in the reference of the incident that she sent me a pic quoting “true love is better than first love”. So now? What would she mean it to be? That Nilim is better than Mrinmay? Or something else. I don’t exist even in the fake LOVE. I am not jealous of what she said or who else gonna be her next boyfriend. Hell yeah, I am leaving her, not at all, but trying my best. What she has been doing with me since the date of leaving me in 2015, is a feeling worse than the meaning of the most slang word in the world.
••••So she is happy now. She talks to me with normalcy. I too (may or may not be).
••••Anyways, I m going to leave her. From today. Hm. Half-boyfriend I was. So let’s do the opposite of Half-girlfriend. I’ll leave her.
••••Hatho, the best of best friends, has taught me to leave all our things upon destiny. So ok, Destiny, please do a kind favour to me.
••••I always take decision to leave her, but stuck somewhere whenever she texts me, it may be after two days or two months.
But this time, I think Chetan Bhagat ji has made my mind much more confined than that of hers.
••••I m missing my best friend Hatho who is the only person to make me laugh anytime anyhow at any condition. A pure bestfriendship is the greatest relationship in the world. No issue for leaving,no issue for falling in love. Yes we love our bestfriends, and that is real love, fake doesn’t exist there.
And so between Hatho and me.
••••Still, I thank to my vagini Pranami to give me support at all the time I need. She’s mature of mind and can understand what a hurted person can feel. Next to Sailen who knows everything of my whole story and hence supports me from first.
••••So, it has been ended for now. Hoping of better luck next time. Someone will take the place of mine in her heart. Oh sorry, I was never there in her heart. I meant someone would be the lucky one to be her boyfriend oneday. And I will be the one to be the incomplete man with incomplete love story. Though I am not sure about this is really going to happen or not,but not expecting anything good rather than it.
••••The saddest part is that out of 100, I am going to miss her 100%, and consequently rest does she, I.e., 0.
••••Madhav Jha was mad of a physical relationship! And I hardly touch her once or near it. Hmm, I remember, I kept my hand on her head to bade bye in the hotel. It really hurts when I come to realise why she would give me a chance to take a photo in the hotel. Yes she was right. Who will permit a boy who seems nothing to be of hers to take a picture of hers,that too in a hotel!! I reminded myself, I once held Garima’s hand, soft, smooth with some cold on her wrist. May be it was beacuse of those Cold-Coffee cups. I remember it. A nice hand she had,may be still she has. Just once did i touch her. For this, Do I look like a coward??!! Or something else. IDK.
••••To be honest is like to be isolated from the society. Nothing will you achieve until you make ur mind a criminal one. You can’t live but leave a society without your crooked mind. It is the truth of recent society.
••••Yes I miss Garima, why won’t I ? I don’t love her now. But I miss her cares, bitter truth. She took care of mine. Responded to everything I said or do. Yes, there were a huge number of deals between us, like those of the deal of the British in India. I can’t text more than two girls and she too can’t with more than two boys,we have to tell who were those two friends, we have to know password of the fb ac of each other, and on and on. Inspite of these bitter deals, the relation was a strong one. The deals bounded us. We were like ethanol solution whose bonds couldn’t be broken so easily at normal temperature. But the 700K heat of Rimi broke our covalent bonds, and took me with her. But I didn’t know that this heat would someday burn me so much that my flesh would begin to melt!
••••She said she had truely loved Nilim. How can I take this seriously when I think that if she loves him so much then why she again and again comes to me after breaking up with Nilim? Why didn’t she wait for her true love? No, she didnot fall in true love, and my mind doesn’t say she will ever do!
••••I am wasting all my time on her. Now it’s the time to take serious decision to bloom the flower of my life garden. I can’t destroy myself. What will I be in the end? A loser? No. That I can’t be. I’ll do much better, being a reputed one, I’ll go this time not to her, but to her mother,asking for her hands to put on my hands. Hope, my dream of making her my princess, (though I look like a begger rather than a prince) will come true.
••••The ‘Sindur’ is alwyas ready to symbolise her suhaag on her forhead, and I’ll be the one who will draw the sign of red sun through her hairs. I will put the most precious chain, chain of love, on her neck. For me, her hands will become red with those pretty henna. She will enter my home with her veil down the head. I’ll be the king of our kingdom. A new era will begin, with some hilarious energy in our mind, with a family of our loved ones.